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OMG, what is wrong with Lane Kiffin

Ok, woke up this morning to find out my favorite college football team, Tennessee, as of this moment doesn't have a head coach.  Lane Kiffin decided to go and coach USC, all in one day.  Not that I liked the man all that much, but dang, where is the loyalty.  Obviously he ain't got it.  I was really mad when they let Philip Fulmer go, in a way you can say, right now he is getting his sweet justice.  I am sure he didn't want this, but see what happens when you think the grass is green on the other side.   Considering National Signing Day is weeks away,  I am sure this is messing with some recruits.  So once again, Lane screws Tennessee.  He said he wanted to put the team and university back in the conversation, yeah, by having a big mouth, calling out Urban Meyer and Florida, only to get thumped, forgetting to show up when you played Ole Miss, and now this.  It doesn't matter that recruits were serious about coming to Tennessee, now all they see is a university without a head football coach, so why would they commit to that.  Thanks Lane Kiffin for all you did for us Tennessee Volunteers fan, I hope you get all you deserve at USC. 

Am I being harsh, I am just plain mad over this, and needed to vent.

Monday blues

So it's Monday again, another weekend flew by.  Which the weekend didn't start off wonderful anyway, my friend/neighbor was admitted in the hospital for asthmatic bronchitis, so I was worried about her and had to take care of her pets.  But luckily she is ok, and she is at home.  I am starting to have issues with my sinuses, so it's just a matter of time before I have to make a trip to the doctor.  Boo!  Well nothing major happened in my world over the weekend, me and the hubs watched football, football, and more football.  My husband is so lucky to have a sports loving wife, who is as intense as he is over them.  I am not a lifetime movie kinda girl, I will watch them every once in a while, but they make me cry usually and I don't enjoy that.  Don't get me wrong I am a big sap, who is very emotional, and I love cartoons, (the old ones), kid movies, and romance movies, but I also love action movies, horror movies, (some, not all), and suspense/drama movies.  So I guess you could say I love all kinds.   I made my husband smile Saturday morning by making him breakfast in bed, he has done this for me plenty, but I have never done it for him, so I got up way before he did, and started cooking, and the whole time I am trying to be quiet and keep the dogs quiet, which by the way is not easy, so as not to wake him up, and I get it all made, about to put everything on his plate, and the phone rings, and he wakes up, so he comes in the living room and I have to tell him to go back to bed, for once no argument, he did so, so I made his plate and set everything up for him, I wake him up and tell him surprise, he was happy, but we then realized it is not exactly easy to eat in the bed, so we moved to the living room, so he had a semi breakfast in bed, but either way he loved it.  Well Happy Monday.  Pray for a blessed week.

My Daddy's Birthday

Well today I dedicate this blog to my Daddy, because it is his birthday.  Happy Birthday Daddy!  Me and my dad don't live close to each other, so there's not many birthdays we share together, but we know each of us think of each other on this special day and every day for that matter.  My dad is one of my favorite men, and until my husband came along, he was my only favorite man.  My poor daddy, has to share me with some other guy who comes along and steals his baby girl, bad man.  Naw, we love Philip.  I have always thought my Dad hung the moon, and could never ever do wrong.  I still believe that, by the way, just now I realize we are all made with some flaws.  I almost lost my dad in July of 2007, it was one of the worst days of my life, where I thought this could be it, he might not be able to say it's ok baby girl I am gonna be okay.  I can remember getting the call from Brenda, saying he was going to the ER and I needed to come, I couldn't comprehend, this wasn't my first rodeo with my Dad going to the hospital, but this time felt different, and something told me so.  I called my husband and we rushed to the coast, when we got there they were still running tests and figuring things out.  We waited and waited, and they took us all to the ICU waiting room.  My dad is so loved, there were alot of people.  I remember sitting there thinking of all the times we had together the good, the bad, the ugly, but it didn't matter at that moment, all I wanted was for my daddy to be ok.  The doctor came out and wanted to speak to me and Brenda, so we went back there and got to see him, it was heartbreaking to see him, swollen, hooked up to IV's, monitors, and not being awake, I looked at him and realized this was not my Daddy, where is my daddy I thought, and I lost it, I had to walk out and the minute I walked out the ICU doors I fell to my knees, and I couldn't hold it anymore, I cried and cried, and all I could remember is my husband picking me off the floor and holding me, which is great, cause he doesn't deal well with me crying.  My dad had to have surgery to go in and relieve some pressure from his brain, and clip a brain aneurysm,. What happened, as he was shaving he dropped like a sack of potatoes and was gone, but through the might power of prayer he came back to us, five hours later he came out of surgery, and the doctor said the road would be long but he would recover.  Well the next day, we had to leave because we were closing on our new home, yeah in the middle of all of that we go through this, so that night I get a call that my dad, who they said wouldn't for a while, woke up, pulled his vent tube out, and started speaking, praise the Lord, so to this day my Dad is a walking miracle.  Me and my dad are not as close as I would love for us to be, and part of that is my fault, and I miss that so much, I wish he lived closer, I wish him and my husband could go fishing, I wish that when we have kids, I could take them around the block and down the street to Papaw's house, and drop them off, but it's not like that, and it makes me sad sometimes, but it's life, and we go on.  I pray that I can find a way to be a better daughter to my Dad and that he knows no matter what I love him so very much and even though I am not there on his birthday, that he can imagine I am wrapping my arms around his neck and giving him a big hug.  I love you Daddy, Happy Birthday.

Weight loss day 2

So last night I began my nightly adventure into the world of exercise, you find out exactly how bad out of shape you are when attempting to exercise for the first time in years.  I bought an exercise tape, 30 day Shred by Jillian Michaels, trainer from Biggest Loser, and half way through I was swearing she was the Anti-Christ.  No I really don't mean that.  My husband  is in the living room laughing at the fact I am having to get up and get down and I can't breathe, and I believe somewhere in the process one of my lungs just gave up and ran out of my body.  See he can think about losing weight and does so, I think about it, and it seems I gain five pounds.  Men are so lucky.  Well, so I make it through the tape in one piece and I am still trying to catch my breath, and keep in mind every time I have to do an on the floor exercise my baby dog thinks it's time to lick mommy in the face, how fun is it to get a tongue bath while trying to do crunches.  So point is I made it through the tape, and I was so dang proud.  See, if you read my previous post, I am not easily motivated, and I have a hard time keeping up with the routine of doing something every day, I mean of course I want to go home put on some sweats and a shirt and lay up on the couch all night, but to get healthy again, I can't do that, but tell my brain, it's like there is this evil force in my brain saying so what if you have high blood pressure, you're overweight, and you are only 30, take a break you deserve it, when all in all I do not.  I have been told by my doctor several times, you got to lose weight, you got to for your health and for any hopes of bringing a healthy baby into this world, and I never listen to her or anyone else for that matter.  Well one day it hit me, I could leave my husband a widow, a young widow, just by being lazy and stubborn, and that's not fair to him.  My husband has tried to be my supporter, but he usually gets yelled at, because when he mentions something about exercise, I assume he means get your fat butt up and go exercise you lard butt, when my husband would never say that, have mercy on him if ever did, but he is just trying to help and because I try to find a good excuse not too, I pick a fight with him so maybe I can justify not doing so because I am too mad to do so.  Sounds so stupid, I know.  Well because I love my husband so much, I am going to do this for me, so he will not to have to lead a young life without me.  I know that each day that goes by it will get easier and I will look back one day and say wow look at where I am at now.  I definitely will be relying on God alot through prayer, because I am sure I will need some strength and motivation.  So if anyone reads this pray for me and check back because I will be doing weekly progress reports

Random things about me

1. I love to get up in the mornings to watch my husband sleep, I do this every morning just about, he has no idea I do this.
2. I rearrange my kitchen every week, and still can't get satisfied.
3. I am a die hard football fan, especially Peyton Manning and the Colts
4. I have a short fused temper, I am working on it though
5. I have this mad obsession with leopard print things, so bad I have a tattoo of a leopard on my back, yeah imagine what that will look like when I am 90. HA!
6. I have extreme panic attacks when I drive, therefore, I don't
7. I have two dogs who are my world, if I don't get the chance to have a baby, they would suffice as my babies, they get treated as such.
8. My baby dog thinks he is a lap dog, even though he is 72 pounds
9. My big baby dog is my best friend, he was my partner when me and Philip were dating and experienced some rough times, he gave me all the comfort I needed without being able to say a word
10. I am trying to lose weight, so easy to put it on, not easy to take it off
11. I am not easily motivated
12. I want to learn to paint .
13. I get teased at great lengths for being a Tennessee Vols fan when I am married into an Ole Miss loving family, my brother in law is the worst of em all. HA!
14. I want to visit Italy so bad, but am scared of going overseas.
15. I miss my mom and dad, and wish they both lived near me, which not sure how that would work, considered they are both married to other people, might I mention to great other people
16. I have learned to forgive people for things they have done to me, now I just have to work on the forget part
17. I am fascinated by other people's creativity, but don't have a creative bone in my body, wish I did though
18. For the first time in a long time, I find myself at peace, mostly in part because I realize God's in control
19. I want to be a mother so bad sometimes it hurts, I dream of decorating the nursery, buying baby clothes, all the good stuff, and I even think about the hard stuff and it doesn't phase me, I am not allowed to watch baby shows, or look at baby clothes or baby stuff for that matter in stores, because I cry and it makes my husband feel bad, I realize this is all in God's plan, but it still is hard, so I continue to pray
20.  I love my husband so very much, he truly is my soul mate and my best friend, we have gone through many ups and downs, and times were so rough at one point, but we persevered through it.  My husband provides for me and gives me more than I can ask for and I know he loves me wholeheartedly, just as I do him.

One door closes another one opens

Ever since I have begun trying to walk closer with God, I have had overwhelming feelings of making amends with people who I may have hurt, and also telling those that hurt me I am over it, but I am also not letting you back in long enough to hurt me again.  I feel renewed every time I do this.  I am not one to show my feelings, I usually just repress my feelings and move on.  Since I have been with my husband, I have been taught not to do that, I must allow my feelings out.  Had I had him around many, many years, I probably would not have high blood pressure, but oh well.  I am sure along the way in this process, I will hurt someone's feeling, and let me ask for forgiveness now, because I feel this is a good cleansing for me.  Letting all the negative out bringing more positive in.  I am all about positive things.  Here lately things have been quite nice around our house, we don't communicate with very many people, there is only a few people surrounding us that we talk to or hang out with, which makes for a drama less life, which is a good thing.  Then again, we get lonely, and long for other people to talk to.  I have taken up talking to my babies (dogs), and I talk away, thinking they may talk back.  HA!  That sounds so pitiful.  I wish we could find someone to hang out with every now and then,  but if not oh well.  We have made it this far.  I came to work this morning with a very poor attitude thinking it was going to be a bad day, it really wasn't, I guess cause I didn't allow it to.  I hope tomorrow provides for the same thing, a good day.