Just another day

Well, here it is Wednesday and it is just that much closer to the weekend, woo hoo... I find my spirit restless today, and I am in a down and out mood.  This week I have been given some heart breaking news, that almost seemed too much to handle, but I dealt with it.  My mom went for her tests yesterday, and a valve is leaking in her heart, which is horrible, but that's not the worst of it, her legs have swollen so bad, that the doctor ordered tests to see if there was any blood flow, well there wasn't, no blood flood, no pulse, nothing, which the doctor thinks is because of her lymphnodes which is thanks to her Chron's disease, so the solution to this, is amputation.  OMG!  My mommy's legs, when she told me of course, naturally, she is hysterical and I so I become hysterical, and all I could think of here my momma is, bed ridden, unable to work, and unable to enjoy life, but she always remains positive, never once complains, and fully believes in the Lord, being told she might lose her legs.  I couldn't even imagine what she felt at that moment, but the only thing I could do as her daughter, was comfort her, and the only way I could do that, was pray with her.  Now keep in mind, my mother is a devout Catholic and I am Baptist, there were never any prior prayers in the past between the two of us, so it was kinda special and bittersweet, knowing we were praying for God to take this from my momma and spare her legs, and almost immediately after we prayed, I felt a sense of utter peace, as if God was telling me and my momma it will be alright, I am in control now.  I express to my momma, how the power of prayer is pretty strong, and through him all things are possible, and she believes that fully.  It is hard for me, sometimes, to remember I must let it go for it truly to be God's, because after all I do trust in him, but I always say well it's my problem, I must fix it. Remembering that I am his child, so therefore anything that is my problem, is his too.  So I leave it like this, I will pray for his strength and hope you will pray for my momma, that when she goes to the doctor on Monday, she will have blood flow in her leg.