Yucky blues

I have the yucky blues, I have been sick with some sort of crud since Thursday night, and just when I think I am feeling better, it creeps right back on me.   Of course the easy solution, is to go to the doctor, but I don't have the time, with everyone else in my office being out for some reason or another, I just have no time to go.  All I think it is, is my sinuses, which I fight every year, two or three times a year, so I should be used to it by now.  The other part that has me blue,  I was too sick to go to church yesterday, which I hate to miss, I feel like when I miss, my week starts off in funk.  I must continue to pray that the Lord knows even though I was not there, I worshipped him solo, and that everyday he is in my life, I am wonderfully blessed.  Right now I am struggling with some things in my personal journey to get closer to God, where I fit in, in my new church home, how God wants to use me, and what difference I could make, and how I could shine my light so bright, that people who know me and those that don't, know that I walk the path of a no doubt Christian, I wonder if all Christians, have had the same questions and faced the same uncertainty that I have.  I guess since this is the first time, that all of this matters, it is an unknown territory to me. I pray for our Heavenly Father to guide me down the right path, and that I will trust in him enough to take the path he leads me to, and that I will also be humbled enough to ask for a lifting hand if I stumble along the way.