One door closes another one opens

Ever since I have begun trying to walk closer with God, I have had overwhelming feelings of making amends with people who I may have hurt, and also telling those that hurt me I am over it, but I am also not letting you back in long enough to hurt me again.  I feel renewed every time I do this.  I am not one to show my feelings, I usually just repress my feelings and move on.  Since I have been with my husband, I have been taught not to do that, I must allow my feelings out.  Had I had him around many, many years, I probably would not have high blood pressure, but oh well.  I am sure along the way in this process, I will hurt someone's feeling, and let me ask for forgiveness now, because I feel this is a good cleansing for me.  Letting all the negative out bringing more positive in.  I am all about positive things.  Here lately things have been quite nice around our house, we don't communicate with very many people, there is only a few people surrounding us that we talk to or hang out with, which makes for a drama less life, which is a good thing.  Then again, we get lonely, and long for other people to talk to.  I have taken up talking to my babies (dogs), and I talk away, thinking they may talk back.  HA!  That sounds so pitiful.  I wish we could find someone to hang out with every now and then,  but if not oh well.  We have made it this far.  I came to work this morning with a very poor attitude thinking it was going to be a bad day, it really wasn't, I guess cause I didn't allow it to.  I hope tomorrow provides for the same thing, a good day.